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Nothing is fixed

Feeling demoralized? Acknowledge it.

Sad? Allow it.

Worried? Accept it.

These emotional reactions have a function, just as positive thinking does. They connect you to others, help you to be alert and prepare you to find protective measures. For a full treatment of emotion regulation, ways in which we manage our feelings if they interfere with daily functioning, I recommend a book by Stanford psychologist James Gross that explores every facet of the process. And since we’re at it, I have also written on the way emotions affect memory, most recently, as of this April, here.

On days when negative feelings approach the level of despair, however, turn to James Baldwin. In his 1964 monograph, Nothing Personal, in response to the Harlem Riots where a Black kid was shot by a White police officer and co-authored with his friend, photographer Richard Avedon who provided portraits, he manages to infuse us with a sense of obligation to live and act and stop despairing. (A detailed review of the edited reprint, (insanely expensive, alas,) here.)

The essay begins with a sly criticism of American advertisement, (sort of ironical when you consider that his collaborator on this book, Avedon, was the most influential fashion photographer of the post-war times) but then turns to the darker issues of being a minority in the United States.

We have all heard the bit about what a pity it was that Plymouth Rock didn’t land on the Pilgrims instead of the other way around. I have never found this remark very funny. It seems wistful and vindictive to me, containing, furthermore, a very bitter truth. The inertness of that rock meant death for the Indians, enslavement for the blacks, and spiritual disaster for those homeless Europeans who now call themselves Americans and who have never been able to resolve their relationship either to the continent they fled or to the continent they conquered. Leaving aside-as we, mostly, imagine our- selves to be able to do-those people to whom we quaintly refer as minorities, who, without the most tremendous coercion, coercion indistinguishable from despair, would ever have crossed the frightening ocean to come to this desolate place?”

(Photographs today thus of rocks, in grinding sea.)

After describing multiple causes for despair, Baldwin eventually turns to an emphatic call for hope and persistence in dark hours.

One discovers the light in the darkness, that is what darkness is for; but everything in our lives depends on how we bear the light. It is necessary, while in darkness, to know that there is a light somewhere, to know that in oneself, waiting to be found, there is a light. What the light reveals is danger, and what it demands is faith.”

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For nothing is fixed, forever and forever and forever, it is not fixed (emphasis mine;) the earth is always shifting, the light is always changing, the sea does not cease to grind down rock. Generations do not cease to be born, and we are responsible to them because we are the only witnesses they have.

The sea rises, the light fails, lovers cling to each other, and children cling to us. The moment we cease to hold each other, the moment we break faith with one another, the sea engulfs us and the light goes out.”

Full text of the essay (print it and keep it on your night stand for dark hours!) here.

We might not be able to hold each other physically right now, but the idea is of course at its root one of mutual support and reciprocal solidarity with each other. We can be the light for others, even in hours where things get pretty dark within our own soul. Be a light for someone else, it’ll reflect back, I’ll guarantee it, just as I concur with the claim that nothing is fixed. Ever. We simply need to adjust our time horizons.

Smith’s lyrics for Long Old Road are cited in the essay. Here is the music.

LONG OLD ROAD Bessie Smith 1931 Bessie Smith rec June 11th 1931 New York

It’s a long old road, but I’m gonna find the end, It’s a long old road, but I’m gonna find the end, And when I get there, I’m gonna shake hands with a friend.

On the side of the road,I sat underneath a tree, On the side of the road,I sat underneath a tree, Nobody knows a thought that came over me.

Weepin’ and cryin’, tears fallin’on the ground, Weepin’ and cryin’, tears fallin’on the ground, When I got to the end, I was so worried down.

Picked up my bag, baby, and I tried again, Picked up my bag, baby, and I tried again, I got to make it, I’ve got to find the end!

You can’t trust nobody, you might as well be alone, You can’t trust nobody, you might as well be alone, Found my long lost friend, and I might as well stayed at home!

And here is a full album.

Roses

Some steal roses, I, on the other hand, decided to steal the story attached below, which had been unlocked some time back in the Paris Review as part of their weekly effort to help us through these times. Of course, when I came back to re-read it, having loved it during the first round, it had been locked up again. So I found it somewhere else and I think Clarice Lispector, the author, would be quite content to have the word(s) spread, unorthodox as she was.

Here is a wonderful introduction to this great writer by Benjamin Moser, if you have extra time and or/interest to learn about how a Jewish woman born in Russia in the 1920s became one of the most famous novelists in Brazil. If not, the story below will tell you much about her as well.

There are enough inconsistencies in that story, and a weird imbalance between the drawn-out rose part and the hastily added cherries, that it makes you wonder. Rose stems don’t just snap off, you have to pick with scissors in hand, for the most part. Pink roses mostly don’t have velvety petals, like darker red ones do, particularly not if the roses are marled, having several shades pink, as she indicates, although I have never seen one that is crimson at the center. The scintillating thrill, the fear, the daring – all seems allegorical, with the word virginity thrown in as an after thought. Story keeps swirling in my head, then, as good stories do.

In her 40s, Lispector, like Ingeborg Bachman, fell asleep in her bed with a cigarette in hand and spent months in hospital, forever maimed and put in pain from the 3rd degree burns. Unlike Bachman, however, she survived until cancer got her in 1977. Here is a short poem by Bachman that hints at a different relationship with roses.

In the Storm of Roses

(1953)

Wherever we turn in the storm of roses,
the night is lit up by thorns, and the thunder
of leaves, once so quiet within the bushes,
rumbling at our heels.

I don’t know who the translator was, but the original German poem has a slightly different meaning. It tells of a thunderstorm of roses, during which we turn to the night lit up by thorns, and the thunder of leaves, which used to be so quiet in the bushes, now pursues us.

Im Gewitter der Rosen

(1953)

Wohin wir uns wenden im Gewitter der Rosen,
ist die Nacht von Dornen erhellt, und der Donner
des Laubs, das so leise war in den Büschen,
folgt uns jetzt auf dem Fuß.

Photographs are of roses from my friend’s garden in June(s) gone by, and from neighborhood walks this week. In honor of the most ethereal of flowers I’ll present the most etherial music, MOZART’S PIANO CONCERTO NR. 23, to bring back cheer, thinking of heavenly scent rather than hellish thorns.

Fairytale Friday

Your turn to write. I will hand you the setting and characters, and a short refresher on narrative arc.

Before you pick up your pencil, check on the important parts of beginning, middle, and ending and don’t forget to make use of sequencing words (firstsothennext, after thatfinally) ….at least that’s what I hear they teach in 2nd grade these days.

Setting: a garden, an enchanted wood with a white giant guardian of the path, a clearing and a mysterious pond with golden flowers.

Beginning: good for exposition: introduce the actors and the main conflict.

The heroine and her mother:

Middle: rising action can enhance the conflict – surprises, complications, challenges….eventually getting to the greatest tension, forcing a critical choice.

A magic flower and a magical pathway that narrows:

End: path towards resolution, implied change, punishment, reward. Or just a big gaping hole that leaves the reader wondering….

Alternatively, you can watch Kurt Vonnegut explain it with delicious wit.

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Arcs have multiple and predictable directionality, as A.I. discovered by crunching through thousands of narratives, in case you hadn’t already figured it out yourselves during a life time of reading.

The Heroine’s friend and her mother and father

1. Rags to Riches (rise)

2. Riches to Rags (fall)

3. Man in a Hole (fall then rise)

4. Icarus (rise then fall)

Villains: A sneaky muskrat and a thief of the (golden)goose egg – loudly protested:

5. Cinderella (rise then fall then rise)

6. Oedipus (fall then rise then fall)

Various supportive characters and sidekicks:

A Western Tanager strutting his goods
A Whitethroat (warbler) planning the next move
A very loud wren
A red-winged black-bird, stumped
A yellow-rumped warbler on the look out
A goldfinch in a sea of green

Compose! Just make it a happy ending – the little heroine fell out of her nest in my garden. She deserves the fledgling in a hole arc!

And here is a gorgeous operatic fairy tale: Strauss’ Frau ohne Schatten with English subtitles.

Liberation Day

Last Saturday, April 25, 2020 marked the 75th anniversary of Italy’s Liberation from the Italian Fascists and Nazi occupation of World War II. Lots of remembrances, celebration and photographs of members of the Italian resistance in the news, often accompanied by renditions of Bella Ciao, the communist partisan song used by the Resistance (before the music got ridiculously usurped by Money Heist, the movie.)

Risiera di San Sabba, Trieste, Italy
Archival photograph

By chance I came across some remarks by Maaza Mengiste, an Ethiopian – American writer, Fulbright scholar and social justice activist. Mengiste published her second novel, The Shadow King, last year to rave reviews. I have not yet read it, but have moved it up on my to-be-read-list when I encountered Mengiste’s thoughts around Liberation Day.

The book is set in 1935 during the Italo-Ethiopian war with Mussolini invading Addis-Abbeba, the precursor to World War II. It focusses on the role of women in war, their ability to fight while being subjected to various forms of oppression. The shadow king of the title is a look-alike of Haile Selassi, who is shown from afar to the Ethiopian soldiers to give them courage and remind them of their duty to sacrifice. All this while the real king sits in exile in Bath, England, running out of money and existing on charity for himself and his entourage.

At its core, say the reviews, is the role memory plays in our understanding and interpretation of history. The way we want to or do remember, just as much as the way we intend to forget those aspects of history that don’t fit into our narrative (be that the narrative of victims, or heroes.) (All this sounds dry, but it was one of Times books of the year….and people say you can’t put it down once you start it.)

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The complexity of memory culture was only part of the remarks that I picked up by Mengiste on Sunday. A lot of her research in preparation for the book concerned the relationship between the racial segregation laws that were established in Ethiopia, Somalia, Eritrea and Libya, and Italy’s anti-semitic laws that took effect a year later, in 1938. Mengiste considers bigotry as the shared source for the scourges of colonialism and anti-Semitism. And she celebrated the commemoration of the acts of those courageous resistance fighters who put an end to Mussolini’s reign. As one should.

What resonated was her description of the Italian concentration camp Risiera di San Sabba where some of the Jewish soldiers who had fought as Italians and massacred Ethiopeans during the invasion of Ethiopia, and their families, were imprisoned only a few years later before being sent off to Auschwitz. It was the only camp in Italy where people were killed and then cremated, most of those political prisoners. (Photos today from the memorial.)

“I felt in the presence of ghosts,”Mengiste reports. So did I. A short account of my visit two years ago can be found here.

After reading up on the history the Risiera it became clear that the Italians have some of the same problems around public memory of political darkness as do Germans, independent of the formers’ dedicated resistance. Risiera di San Sabba began its life as a contested site of memory almost immediately after the war’s end, in 1945, when the Communist Counsel on the Liberation of Trieste organized a ceremony at the Risiera that established it as “an icon of the Communist resistant.” In 1965, when the site became a national monument, it was reframed as a site of memory for the anti-Communist wartime resistance. In 1975, the ceremonies accompanying the resurrection of the Risiera memorial emphasized the sacrifice of all victims, describing all as war heroes. The ahistorical nature of these narratives meant that there was no differentiation between victims of racial persecution and political persecution (The carnage done to Yugoslav partisans was omitted.)

After the 1976 war crimes trial in Trieste, the site of the Risiera was used to perpetuate an anti-Communist narrative that emphasized the deportation of Jewish prisoners to death camps in Germany and Poland and portrayed Yugoslav partisans as “non-innocent” victims. In other words, the trial contributed to the image of Italians as contributing only minimally to the maintenance of the camp and to the atrocities committed there. (I learned all this here.)

What I really want to say: it is not all black and white, good and bad, perpetrators and victims. Decisions about who is victim and deserves remembrance and who is not emerge when nations try to justify their actions. The fact of resistance by some also does not wipe out the fact of collaboration by many others. Which is of course a lesson some Germans are still trying to figure out while others are attempting to whitewash much that has occurred. In the meantime all power to those who resisted fascism! May they be remembered forever.

And why Aida as today’s musical choice? Haile Selassi is said to have listened to Aida in the years of exile in Bath. And I’m a sucker for Verdi, in any event.

Have Room, will travel.

“All of humanity’s problems stem from man’s inability to sit quietly in a room alone.”

― Blaise Pascal, Pensées

I wouldn’t go as far as Pascal. Can think of plenty of humanity’s problems that stem from exploitative economic systems, racism, tribalism or exposure to pathogens, to name a few. But we are not here today to discuss politics.

Sculpture by Petra Brambrink

We are here to admire what people who are forced to sit alone in a room come up with – or, more specifically, one particular person, bon vivant, military man, writer, painter and museum director Xavier de Maistre.

The guy was a marvel. Born to an aristocratic family in Savoy in the 18th century, brother to one of the more blood-thirsty counter-revolutionary philosophers, Joseph de Maistre, he fled to Piedmont when the revolution threatened his aristocratic neck. There he was at some point punished with 42 days of house arrest as the consequence of a dubious duel.

Upper left and right: German painter Michael Saran
Water color by Henk Pander
Print by Mexican artist, my Hannukah gift from the kid this year

With just one servant and his dog as company, he spent these weeks in 1790 turning his boredom and frustration into a book: A Journey Around my Room (Voyage autour de ma chambre,) which was published eventually in 1794 at the urging of his brother, the one who thought that mankind would eventually destroy itself by killing each other. Who knows, maybe Joseph could predict the future… then again the servant and the dog played quite a role in Xavier’s book teaching humanity, so maybe there is hope.

Photographs by Ken Hochfeld (top) and Dale Schreiner (bottom)

The book – pretending that each object or view in his room is comparable to the sights of foreign travel – is satire and moral speculation, thorough observation of detail and far-flung analysis all at once – it is fun, most of all because it drips with the determination of making the best of any given situation, a notion that I currently like to have repeated to me as often and as loudly as possible. And it exhibits how thoughts of this or that, of observables, can lead to thoughts that are only loosely related but somehow connected, after all, veering into more abstract domains – something that always fascinates me, both when I read and when I write. Please confirm, dear Reader!

(Photographs today are consequently a journey around my living room, with select treasures bartered, bought or being given as presents by the wonderful artistic and/or kind people in my life. )

Blown glass by Solomon Reisberg, pottery bey Renate Funk
Same here
Porcelain work by Renate Funk

Here is an excerpt from the book (and talking about tangential side lines – the excerpt was located between a letter from an English mummy smuggler, and an 1889 advice manual to lady travelers called Safe Conduct. Laphams Quarterly never disappoints.)

Maistre wrote a few other books, none particularly successful, including Les Prisonniers du Caucase, (“The Prisoners of the Caucasus,” 1825) that included a poem which can be heard in today’s musical selection.

(Of course, there is also renowned harpist Xavier de Maistre, who is musically perhaps a marvel, but also strikes me as a strange bird. He likes being filmed running around in a T-shirt that has Defend Paris and a machine gun printed on it…. here he is playing Haydn who wrote this concerto during the author’s lifetime.)

Metal Sculpture by Steve Tilden
My favorite bunnies
Pewter from my father’s house

18th century Maistre lived a colorful life, with many explorations into different fields, acknowledged by his peers, and at home in the country of his choice, Russia, where he died in 1852, aged 88. Should be a plum for any biographer.

Various owls gifted by friends who know my affinity
Demi-tasse from a dear friend who remembers the connection between violets and birthdays, always.

Of course, if you don’t want to travel around your own living room, there is always the possibility of books. The best vicarious travel ever.

The Year of the Rat

Really, all I wanted yesterday was to glimpse some color on an extraordinarily dreary, damp day. Off I went to visit Lan Su Chinese garden since the red New Years lanterns all around old town/Chinatown reminded me that the Year of the Rat is upon us and the garden celebrates the occasion. I’d surely find some color there – as I did indeed. Red, pink, white, green against the dark grey of the stone and the light grey of the drizzling rain – it was perfect.

And then the chain of associations kicked in: Rats reminded me of disease vectors, disease of course of the new, deadly Wuhan Corona virus, a relative of the dreaded SARS virus. It is communicable between humans, and now emerging wherever infected people travel, including the first case that has appeared in Washington State. Our dear leader, of course deems it totally under control. We really wouldn’t know, would we, given the deregulation and cutting of funding for research and disease control (here is a fascinating interactive chart by the Brookings Institute of ALL the deregulatory actions committed by this administrations of January 2020.)

And the WHO seems to think otherwise:

The World Health Organization is convening an expert panel today to discuss whether the Wuhan virus should be designated “public health emergency of international concern,” a rare step aimed at getting more money and resources from global donors to fight an outbreak. The emergency designation has been used just five times: against polio, the swine flu, the Zika virus and two recent Ebola virus outbreaks in Africa.

The Chinese Government, despite attempts at secrecy and minimization of the expected danger – the virus is making people intensely ill with a high proportion of deaths, with no known immunization or effective counteragents – does take it seriously. As of yesterday, the 11 million people of Wuhan and surrounds (8.9 million in the city proper) are prohibited to travel and leave the region, despite the Chinese New Year which customarily sees people travel all across the country to be with their families.

That is like telling the entire city of London that it is quarantined. You don’t make that decision lightly. Travel warnings and advisories are also given to those coming into China, with dire consequences for tourism – dependent industries, particularly around the New Year which usually draws hundreds of thousands of people in addition to the millions traveling within China.

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Clearly a life and death battle against an invisible enemy is anticipated and the forces are closing the hatches. Or the airports, as the case may be. Battle reminded me of another, more positive association with recent things Chinese: the first ever translation of Sun Tzu’s The Art of War into English by a woman, Berkeley’s Professor of early Chinese History, Michael Nylan (yes, that’s her first name. And why do people focus on the gender? Valerie Niquet already translated the same book into French in 1988, and some of the best war novels ever written were by women – Pat Barker’s Regeneration trilogy and Silence of the Girls, Christa Wolf’s Cassandra.) Art of War has been glued to the pockets of Ho Chi Minh and Mao Zedonga, served as a manual for military men and Steve Bannons of the world, many trying to understand how to vanquish one’s enemies, not necessarily just on the battle field. The translation has received positive reviews, all of which mention that the translator sent out the manuscript to a huge variety of scholars, military people and politicians to receive input.

I found most interesting what she herself had to say both about the art of translation and the lessons she drew from the text itself: that the book is in essence a manual about how to avoid war. (Her essay is really a fascinating read, found in LitHub of all places.) And how can you not be curious about a woman whose research interests include belief. (Research interests: Early China: Seven centuries of Warring States through Eastern Han (475 BC–AD 220), with an emphasis on sociopolitical context; aesthetic theories and material culture; and belief.)

 “It is not only that The Art of War might as well be named The Art of Life, since it famously advises readers (originally all powerful men at court) to avoid war, by any means, if possible, on the two cogent grounds that it is far too costly a substitute for diplomacy and long-term strategies, and that the outcome is never assured, given all the variables at play. Equally importantly, the Art of War, like Thucydides, conjures the entire spectrum of human motivations that lead the already ultra-powerful to seek more power through violence. Then, too, The Art of War is interested in what I call the “politics of the common good” essentially, inquiring what sort of leadership can create a stable society in which domestic disruptions and painful divisions are at a minimum. In conversation with the so-called “Confucian” Classics, The Art of War imagines a three-pronged approach, wherein the vast majority can be brought to identify with good leaders, without imposing much conformity, as those leaders have shown themselves to be humane and deliberate when serving the people’s needs, desires, and interests.”

Loved how they picked a slightly pink balloon color to match the camellias in one courtyard

Politics of the Common Good – take that, Steve Bannon! And for all those women who adhere to the Chinese New Years taboo that a woman may not leave her house all day (!) otherwise she will be plagued with bad luck for the entire coming year – think of all those ancient Chinese generals who were female! They did not exactly stay home.

新年快乐 / 新年快樂 (xīn nián kuài lè) “Happy New Year!”

步步高升 / 步步高陞 (Bùbù gāoshēng)  “A steady rise to high places!” / “on the up and up” – yup, that’s not happening in your kitchen!

Music today is also a climb – for our ears and brains used to more traditional fare.

Campy, whimsical and evocatively comical,
Rated R wildly re-imagines the myths of the Chinese Zodiac Animals to encompass zany comedy and to dramatize serious social issues. In a post-apocalyptic world, the Zodiac gods suffer a crisis as their human underlings lose interest in reproducing. The Lark, a chirpy court entertainer who dreams of becoming the first Goddess, descends to the Earth to solve the mystery. Through the journey, she discovers her real passion and therefore, revives the world.

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A CHAMBER OPERA IN THREE SCENES WITHOUT INTERMISSION
Music and Libretto by Wang Jie.
Instrumentation: Singers, Fl, Cl, Bsn, Hn, Tpt, Trbn, Tba, 3 Perc, Keyboard soloist: Hpsd (amplified)/Cel/Pno, Strings.
The Lark (Coloratura/High Lyric Soprano), Peasant woman (Mezzo-Sop.), The Rooster (Actor or Tenor), The Rat (Basso Profundo/Bass-Baritone)

The remaining ten Zodiac Gods, humans on Earth (SATB chorus of minimum 16 voices)

Rated R for Rat was commissioned by the American Composers Orchestra through the Underwood Commission Prize, American Opera Projects through an OPERA America Female Composers Commissioning Grant, and received its first workshop with assistance from the San Francisco Conservatory of Music Opera Program.

And what did my joss stick reveal? Advice noted!

Choices, Choices…

Happy New Year to one and all. And what should it be, dear reader, the first weekly topic of 2020? What is the appropriate choice for a year looming in front of us like an iceberg, with the distinct options of either collision or rapid melting, not sure which one would be worse?

Should it be art? Politics? Literature? Nature? A snippet of them all, in combination? I’ll see what I can do.

What I can easily do is recommend a writer, Barry Lopez, who does it to perfection, creating that amalgam of politics and nature in his most recent book Horizon. Others agree:  It’s a beautiful, sorrowful autobiographical epic that feels like a final reckoning of sorts: with the difficulty of living a moral life today, with our estrangement from nature, and with the spectacular mess we’ve made of things. There’s not an iota of righteousness or judgment, but instead, abundant reminders of human possibility in desperate times. (You can find the whole conversation between John O’Connor, a journalism professor at BU and Lopez here.)

Lopez has excelled at both fiction and non-fiction writing that concerns the interface between nature and the more domesticated world, with his two early non-fiction works probably known best, Of Wolves and Men (1978) and Arctic Dreams (1986)—the latter a winner of the National Book Award. His writing is valuable for both the explanations he offers as to how we got to where we are, but also for the suggestions, both practical and political, of how we might handle what is in front of us – (which is why I was thinking of him when facing the calendar page with its fresh round numbers…)

I have been using the week between the years, my time “off,” for extended walks in the woods, all around Portland, in contrast to Lopez’ extensive travels to the less explored corners of the earth, but I think the conclusions are the same, no matter where you are: to connect to nature you need to stop controlling it, you need to stop talking and start to listen, start shifting the focus of your attention. This is one of the reasons why I photograph such a variety of things on my walks – not “just” the birds, but the trees, the plants, the vistas, the rivers, with widely distributed attention.

Found this garbage receptacle with sticker at the entrance to Forst Park on Firelane 1

Connecting to nature, to understand what is at stake as well as what can heal, is one of the greatest demands of our time. We might think we are far enough away from the fiery catastrophes unfolding in Australia, or the traumatic floods engulfing Indonesia, but the planet is connected. What we do matters, even in minute ways.

And no, this is not Cassandra Heuer speaking, this is a determined, energized and hopeful citizen of 2020, looking forward to summoning all in solidarity with the goal of protecting what needs protecting. If you don’t have the time to tackle the 500+ pages, here is a lovely comprehensive review of Horizon ending with these words:

Horizon is long, challenging and symphonic. Its patterns only disclose themselves over the course of a full, slow reading. Rhythms rise and surge across 500 pages; recursions and echoes start to weave. This is a book to which one must learn to listen. If one does, then – to borrow phrases from Lopez – “it arrives as a cantus, tying the faraway place to the thing living deep inside us”. He has given us a grave, sorrowful, beautiful book, 35 years in the writing but still speaking to the present moment: “No one can now miss the alarm in the air.”

And talking about something symphonic, here is Dvorak to guide us to a new year, making a new world.

Lopez lives along the McKenzie river in Oregon’s Mt. Hood State Forest. Photographs are from that forest photographed during bygone trips.

And this is me in my rain pants in the new year:” Stay intrepid!” is my resolution.

I quietly wonder

I quietly wonder if the longing ever goes away. This is November, the month of my mother’s death in 1983, and even though the pain has long gone away, the longing lingers. It was whipped up yesterday, like a storm whips waves across the ocean, when I had an unusual encounter.

Walking in the late afternoon, without the dog as luck would have it, I saw an owl, perched at shoulder height at the side of the path, well camouflaged from afar. I immediately thought of my mother who had a collector’s affinity to all things owl, don’t ask me why. The memory of that association has taken root in my own life, with friends and children keeping a tiny bit of memorial flame alive when they playfully allude to owls in our interactions. Since I don’t collect anything, I sometimes wonder what kind of association will endure beyond my own demise, that easily translates into spontaneous reminiscence when you see something. Crows, for all I know. Oh well.

The owl let me approach to never before encountered levels of closeness to an animal in the wild, about two meters, and checked out my iPhone which was all I had to take the pictures. She then chucked out a pellet of unknown lunch remnants right in front of my feet and continued to stare at me. When I finally left she flew away only when I turned around for one last time.

So, in this week dedicated to strong women, here’s a shout out to my mother and what would be her current reading list, if she was still around, of books written by even stronger women. (Shamelessly stolen from an essay by Kendi reflecting on Black women authors.) The perfect reminder that we have to look forwards, not backwards, but that revisiting the past can at times make a huge difference.

The Yellow House: A Memoir, by Sarah M. Broom

A finalist for the National Book Award, The Yellow House is a moving and intensely told story of 100 years of Broom’s family and their relationship to home place, to the unruly shotgun home in a neglected area of New Orleans that was devastated before and by Hurricane Katrina.

Everything Inside: Stories, by Edwidge Danticat

One of the greatest short-story writers of our time returns with these eight forceful, emotionally gripping stories set from Miami to the Caribbean and beyond, stories that unlock the forces that drive us away and together.

Breathe: A Letter to My Sons, by Imani Perry

Raw, reflective, regal, this letter to Perry’s two sons is simultaneously an intimate love message of construction inside her home and a missive outside her home to destroy the racist forces not holding her black sons—all black children—as dear, as dearly human.

Crossfire: A Litany for Survival, by Staceyann Chin

This is the highly anticipated first full-length collection of poems—in all their power and force and vulnerability—from a respected spoken-word poet who is magnificently queering American letters.

Grand Union: Stories, by Zadie Smith (I might give her another try – I did NOT like her novels.)

In the first story collection of this critically acclaimed writer, Smith clenches us to the haunting legacies of history, identity, rebirth, and to the mysterious futures coming down on us.

Sulwe, by Lupita Nyong’o, illustrated by Vashti Harrison

A powerful critique of colorism for children, this book takes us on a magical journey into the darkness of night to see all its beauty—and I’ve already taken that journey several times with my daughter.

Unashamed: Musings of a Fat, Black Muslim, by Leah Vernon

As this incredibly instructive memoir asks us, if Vernon can find her way to live unapologetically as a big-bodied black Muslim woman, if she can own the rebellion that is her body and hold her hijab-covered head high as people look down on her, then why can’t anyone living in an othered body—then why can’t we?

Race for Profit: How Banks and the Real Estate Industry Undermined Black Homeownership, by Keeanga-Yamahtta Taylor

Longlisted for the National Book Award, Race for Profit masterfully dissects how exploitative and racist real-estate practices continued well after housing discrimination was banned in 1968, with policies ostensibly encouraging low-income black homeownership that ended up opening the doors to new methods of exploiting black homeowners.

She Came to Slay: The Life and Times of Harriet Tubman, by Erica Armstrong Dunbar

She Came to Slay provides a genre-bending and stunning blend of traditional biography, illustrations, photos, numbers, and engrossing sidebars to illuminate the incredible life of Harriet Tubman in an exciting new form.

The Revisioners: A Novel, by Margaret Wilkerson Sexton

The Revisioners intricately probes and reveals the depths of women’s relationships, from the powerful to the marginalized, especially the bonds across the color line that make and break those relationships, and their generational legacies.

Moving Forward: A Story of Hope, Hard Work, and the Promise of America, by Karine Jean-Pierre

Jean-Pierre inspires us to get involved in politics—every single one of us, no matter where we are from or who we are—by remarkably sharing her unlikely march from New York’s Haitian community to Barack Obama’s White House to the clear-eyed MSNBC contributor she is today.

White Negroes: When Cornrows Were in Vogue … and Other Thoughts on Cultural Appropriation, by Lauren Michele Jackson

An incredible reimagining of Norman Mailer’s infamous 1957 essay of a similar name, White Negroes confronts the normalization of black cultural appropriation for white profit, issuing a clarion call for a truly empowered and compensated creative black community.

Black Towns, Black Futures: The Enduring Allure of a Black Place in the American West, by Karla Slocum

Drawing on years of interviews and observations, Slocum’s fascinating book examines Oklahoma’s historic black towns from their marginality at the junction of black and rural to their serving as sacred places that affirm dreams of black self-determination and community empowerment.

Girl, Woman, Other: A Novel, by Bernardine Evaristo

This fast-paced, rhythmically composed, heart-rending Booker Prize winner centralizes and gives voice to 12 unforgettable black British women characters who are often marginalized and silenced in Britain due to their race, gender, sexual orientation, and class.

Children of Virtue and Vengeance, by Tomi Adeyemi (I devoured the first volume!)

The second title in Adeyemi’s Legacy of Orïsha trilogy, it is a spectacular sequel to Adeyemi’s New York Times best-selling Children of Blood and Bone.

Assata Taught Me: State Violence, Mass Incarceration, and the Movement for Black Lives, by Donna Murch

Drawing its title from the Black Panther in Cuban exile, this collection of incisive and timely essays explores the emergence of the world’s largest police state and the youth-led organized resistance against state violence and mass incarceration.

There are your stocking stuffers! Any other way I can make your life easier?

Music today is a sweet clip of opera Diva Angel Blue interacting with kids and her performance of Kurt Weill’s Youkali.

I often wonder…

I often wonder how so many women out there manage to face health decisions and catastrophes with courage, independently of how varied their circumstances. Making life and death decisions around illness or reproductive choices in itself is hard enough – if you add to that a hostile environment, economic factors like lack of employment or risk to employment, no health insurance, family needs etc., it can become an overwhelming task.

I was reminded of that by two pieces I read this weekend, marveling at the courage around us. One was an article by a young Health Care reporter at Politico, Alexandra Glorioso, whose last name is an apt description for her candor in speaking about her breast cancer diagnosis at age 31. The candor is glorious. We live in a time when the enforced silence that even only two generations earlier had to endure, is no longer an issue. If anything, there is such a flood of testimonials about going through cancer (of all kinds) and living with disease, that interest has been saturated. Or in any case devoted to hearing the success stories, not the fact that 42.200 women each year in this country still die from breast cancer.

Among this deluge, Glorioso stands out for her willingness to admit to all of the factors driving her choices about treatment and how to deal with the effects of treatment, less heroic ones like vanity included. And how can you not feel for a 30-year old dealing with issues of threats to fertility and artificially induced menopause (potentially reversible) so that the cancer can be fought without estrogen feeding it. Yet this young woman also has a support structure that is phenomenally helpful – beginning with a scientist father who knows all the right experts, to a fresh boyfriend who soon becomes a fiancee, to a health insurance that covers, if not all, then seemingly a lot of the procedures and medications. She thrives on the solidarity between strangers on the web-wide “cancer club,” who add succor and practical help with their electronic interactions.

I was moved, but it was nothing in comparison to the other piece on my desk, a book review of poet Anne Boyer’s new book The Undying. The very first paragraph had me jump up and call a book order in at my local bookstore:

The pink ribbon, that ubiquitous emblem of breast cancer awareness, has long been an object of controversy and derision, but the poet and essayist Anne Boyer doesn’t just pull it loose, unfastening its dainty loop; she feeds it through a shredder and lights it on fire, incinerating its remains. “The world is blood pink with respectability politics,” she writes, “as if anyone who dies from breast cancer has died of a bad attitude or eating a sausage or not trusting the word of a junior oncologist.”

Boyer, a single mom in precarious employment circumstances as a teacher, also still young when diagnosed at age 41, has an unusually lethal type of breast cancer that now, 5 years and many extraordinary debilitating treatments later, seems to be absent. From what I gather from the reviews (and here is another one by Sarah Resnick that is intellectually richer and putting the memoir within a larger framework of society’s interaction with cancer,) the book is only partially about the author’s experience on the medical front. Instead it deals with how the world reacts if you disclose the anguish, the fear, the exhaustion, the pain and the losses not within a narrative of heroic survival, sticking to your on personal war story. As Resnick notes:

To linger in the grammar of pain or anger or sorrow, in the bleak syntax of one’s illness, risks summoning “a chorus of people, many of whom have never had cancer, accusing her of ingratitude, saying she is lucky, warning her that her bad attitude might kill her, reminding her she could be dead.” These impositions, Boyer explains, arrive as diktats from a new boss: “the boss that is everyone.” “Self-manage,” they cry from their open-plan workspace. Avoid speaking of death, practice meditation, do yoga. Take care of others. Summon your inner warrior. Smile. Fight! This new boss is doing the bidding of our unjust and unhinged economic system (“white supremacist capitalist patriarchy”): If the onus of responsibility—for recovery, for health, for well-being—falls on the person who is sick, the rest of the world gets a pass, is not accountable for whether a person lives or dies, and if she lives, in what state…..Breast cancer, Boyer insists, cannot be understood as an ahistorical sameness, an uncontrolled division of abnormal cells. It is, rather, a socially and historically constructed nebula, and the women who have it do not suffer from the illness alone. They suffer from the world.

A world, we might add, that faces ever increasing attacks on our ability to stay healthy and avoid carcinogenic exposure: this week we learned about new EPA restrictions on using science to draft and monitor health regulations. Let’s breathe poisonous air, drink poisonous water, have the kids be exposed to lead – as long as industrial profits are not endangered….

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Why was I so much more receptive to the issues raised within the book review than the Politico essay? Partly from admiration for the harder fate of the poet, facing much more radical treatment, who might leave an orphan behind if things didn’t work out, who had to do all this without the network of supporters. More likely, though, because I always thrive on reading about the larger picture – not purely the human interest story, no matter how much I can relate to it, but the anchoring within the system, the world that surrounds us, whose parameters affect us all. Again, the red thread of this week, receptivity to information is so much defined by what is already there. Which leaves me wondering, what kind of information is not getting through to me when it should, caught in the net of preconceived notions or habits.

As William Congreve once said: music can tame the savage breast. It can also tame the sorrow over the absent breast. This is particularly true for music written by someone unwell himself, in this case Beethoven who suffered severely from Inflammatory Bowel Disease and after a bout wrote a string quartet (Opus 132) in 1825 with one movement titled: “Song of thanksgiving to God for recovery from an illness, in the Lydian mode.” It washes over you with anguish and joy, echoing the everlasting longing for recovery.

Photographs today ignore pink ribbons and instead offer multitudes of silvery slivers of hope.

Das doppelte Lottchen

Das doppelte Lottchen was one of the most famous children’s books of all time in Germany. It was written by one of my favorite authors as a child, Erich Kästner, and my American readers know it as The Parent Trap. Since we are doing movies this week, here are the links to an early version made by Disney and the 1950s German original underneath, with the author himself as the narrator.

https://ok.ru/video/310902983310

The literal translation of the title is “Little Lotte, doubled.” I cannot help but think of Erich Kästner now as Erich, doubled, since I have recently learned a lot about the man I revered as both a politically progressive journalist and writer in the first half of the last century and a man who intuitively understood children well. He wrote the most unimaginably inventive literature that guided them through the difficult years of growing up. One of his most famous books, Emil and the Detectives, was a lesson about what can be achieved with solidarity when individualism fails.


What I learned shifted the picture in a not too positive direction. He was a deeply troubled soul, drowning his sorrows in alcohol and dying, eventually, a miserable death of esophageal cancer after life time of smoking. Those self-regulating habits covered a long, complicated history with women, who he betrayed, exploited, cheated on and eventually dumped – all, but his overly dominant mother. In some ways even she was kept at a distance after a childhood enmeshment that lasted into adulthood – they wrote each other daily, and his letters were full descriptions of his sex life in every sordid detail, reports on his adventures and the Vd he contracted, and regular proclamations that no one mattered more to him than she. But he lived far enough away that it was only letters. All this accompanied by his dirty laundry that she washed and sent back until he was in his 50s.

Born in Dresden in 1899 he would have been 100 years old last Saturday. His mother pushed him to excel, often threatening suicide and having him drag her back from the bridges;

It is rumored that his real father was a doctor in a household where she worked as a domestic; his official father seems to have been in the picture only by name, excluded by the folie á deux of mother and son. Gifted, precocious, Kästner went on to receive a doctorate in literature and worked in Berlin as a journalist, writer and poet during the Weimar Republic. As a representative of the Neue Sachlichkeit his poetry combined distancing, satire and a sharp eye for the political developments of the day.

His progressivism did get him in trouble, in some ways. He was arrested twice by the Gestapo, his books were publicly burnt – and yet….. He stayed in Germany for all of the Nazi rule, saw his friends emigrating, incarcerated and committing suicide or being killed, while he had some understanding with Goebbels that he was to engage in a large movie project to distract the masses: the Tales of the Baron von Münchhausen. Which he did.https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x101n37

After the war he became a newspaper editor in Munich, had a secret relationship and child with someone while being officially together with his companion from the Berlin years. His output dwindled, he never wrote poetry again and refused to discuss what had happened during the 3rd Reich. He even limited the contact to his mother who did not live to see her only grandchild.

Then again, he was a committed pacifist and actively fought, demonstrated and agitated against a re-armament and military build-up of the new German Republic. Marching in the streets, if need be. As I said, Erich, doubled.

Here is one of his poems that I have always liked. It riffs off a Goethe verse from Mignon’s Lament: Kennst Du das Land wo die Zitronen bluehen? You know that land where lemon groves bloom?

You know that land where canons bloom was a devastating parody of the German predilection for militarism.

Here is my English translation, obviously minus the rhymes, the German version is declaimed by Kästner himself in the link.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2I9FQNFzDA

Photographs today from Dresden, where Kästner was born.

Schubert’s music picks up on Mignon with a superb Elisabeth Schwarzkopf:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZMe22tHvG4c